Blair Waldorf

One of my favorite shows is Gossip Girl. I finished the series on Netflix and I'm starting it over now. Even though its dramatic and complete fiction I still want to be some of the characters. Blair Waldorf is my favorite. She is rich, has a rich boyfriend, has perfect grades at school and basically every aspect of her life is well, perfect. Her house and bedroom and wardrobe are perfect too. It's sickening how perfect everything is but she's a fictional character so it's addicting to watch the perfection. Anyway, after a few seasons I realized she has exactly what I have, OCD. While I may not be rich or live in the Upper East Side of Manhattan or have a loaded boyfriend or a maid following me around or really anything she has, I do act somewhat the same way. I feel like I have to have control over a lot or a huge portion of my life. We might not be able to control much but we can control how we feel. My room is usually immaculate. My mother always told me clutter is a source of stress. And I never disagreed because whenever my room is a mess, so is my life. Blair's room never has an object out of place and yes I know it's fake but yes its still possible to have clean room. Anytime i'm stressed I clean my room and everything is all better until I realize it's still not clean enough. SOOO if you're stressed and your grades aren't too hot, try picking up the area you live in and maybe you're mind will clear up too.

COLLEGE

September we were running full speed. October came and we were speed walking. November came and we were walking at a nice pace. December came and I feel as though I am dragging myself. January isn't here yet but I can already see myself crawling through the school from class to class.My motivation is there but I am deteriorating. I got into college this week. It kind of picked me up a bit. I mean I thought about it. I thought about how next year we won't see these hallways anymore or the lunchroom, or the classrooms. We won't smell the nauseating school lunches. We won't ever have another spirit day. We won't ever have another first day of school here ever again. We won't see half of the people in our graduating class ever again. It's so strange to think that a huge part of what life is for us right now, will be a memory next year. I thought about seventh grade, and the songs we used to listen to. I thought about the clothes we all used to wear and how we loved them back then and now we look back and laugh. I thought about the teachers who looked at our faces every day for nine months. I thought about my little sister who was beginning all of this at the same school, just as I was getting ready to leave. I thought about how when I walked through the doors for the very first time I knew I had a lifetime to go, a whole six years. Now its done, just a few more months to go. I had thought about graduation but honestly I never imagined it actually happening. Me in a cap and gown? Our whole class sitting in a bunch of chairs getting ready to part ways and do something real. I thought about our families all in one place. I thought about the graduation parties and the gifts and that's it. This is our last few months of high school and while I am completely exhausted I am still going to try.

Christmas and Bad Presents

So we all have probably experienced pretending like we like a gift that we actually do not like. For me it happens with the same family members every year. An aunt or uncle will buy you an odd looking scarf or bracelet and you say "aww i love it!". You ask yourself why on Earth they would buy such a hideous thing, even if they were buying it for someone else. Then you get offended because they think it suits you, and if its ugly, what are they trying to say? My mom and dad will look at me with that "MAKE IT LOOK LIKE YOU LIKE IT!" look, and that is that. I now have another thing to sit in my room for another year without seeing the light of day. The older I got I had realized the reasoning for receiving ugly gifts, or the reason why they buy us them. It's all because we didn't answer their question. Remember about a month before Christmas day they asked you that awkward question, "What do you want for Christmas?" and you have no idea how to answer it and you get all shy and say "nothing" or that they don't have to get you anything. Just say gift cards. Make it easy for them. They'll buy you a gift regardless so it is better you give them an idea of something you'll use so they don't waste their money. Now that I buy gifts for my family I know how hard it is to shop for other people. One year you want a thousand things, the next you have no idea what to ask for because you really don't need anything. That's another thing, none of us really need anything, but Santa will come anyway, at least if you have younger siblings right now. Santa still comes to my house. Think of what you use a lot, and might be running low on, or something you loved that you lost, or something that ripped or broke, or think of something you've wanted for a very long time, think of things you'll use. I typically ask for fuzzy socks.

Reasons Why You Should Just Go To Sleep

As teens, there is only a short list of things we actually put much thought into in a day. Personally, sleep shows up on that list a few times. Remember when we were little and we hated hearing the words "time for bed"? Well I think we can all say that even though we don't all get told when exactly to go to bed, sleep is one of our favorite things now. Reasons To Just Go To Sleep: 1. You need the beauty sleep 2. You need to give your brain time to strengthen new memories 3. Your body will feel better overall 4. It can speed up your recovery from a sickness 5. And honestly, sleeping is just better than anything else. So, in conclusion if you aren't feeling well, or you're stressed or down, sleep. If you are trying to cram in studying the night before a test, the most you can do is look over the material before you go to sleep. Your brain will not be able to retain too much information from an hour of studying when it has the whole previous day's thoughts and memories to process. So sleep it off!