COLLEGE

September we were running full speed. October came and we were speed walking. November came and we were walking at a nice pace. December came and I feel as though I am dragging myself. January isn't here yet but I can already see myself crawling through the school from class to class.My motivation is there but I am deteriorating. I got into college this week. It kind of picked me up a bit. I mean I thought about it. I thought about how next year we won't see these hallways anymore or the lunchroom, or the classrooms. We won't smell the nauseating school lunches. We won't ever have another spirit day. We won't ever have another first day of school here ever again. We won't see half of the people in our graduating class ever again. It's so strange to think that a huge part of what life is for us right now, will be a memory next year. I thought about seventh grade, and the songs we used to listen to. I thought about the clothes we all used to wear and how we loved them back then and now we look back and laugh. I thought about the teachers who looked at our faces every day for nine months. I thought about my little sister who was beginning all of this at the same school, just as I was getting ready to leave. I thought about how when I walked through the doors for the very first time I knew I had a lifetime to go, a whole six years. Now its done, just a few more months to go. I had thought about graduation but honestly I never imagined it actually happening. Me in a cap and gown? Our whole class sitting in a bunch of chairs getting ready to part ways and do something real. I thought about our families all in one place. I thought about the graduation parties and the gifts and that's it. This is our last few months of high school and while I am completely exhausted I am still going to try.